[Family→]
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[Helping→]
[Travel→]
[Hitch-Hiking→]
[Zen→]
[Bokononism→]
[Esperanto→]
[Symbolism→]
[Writing→]
Family
The 21st century offered me a family in the form
of a beautiful partner in life, Makale'a and a beautiful daughter,
Gypsy Anna. What can I say? As many before me have experienced, the
concept of self is radically re-defined in the context of a family.
Beyond any doubt they became the greatest interest and passion in life.
Of what could a man be more proud than his own family?
I have to confess, from the perspective of
offspring I was never particularly enamoured of my family - how typical
is that? - but now, from the perspective of parent it is an object of
love and monopolises my time. To wit, these pages, and others I was
maintaining all faded from view and only slowly have reappeared in those
spare few minutes afforded a new father from time to time to spend on a
computer at home.
Alas in 2009 Makale'a with a history of clinical depression and destructive beahviours
chose to destroy our family and a new chapter of life opened, that of
family breakdwon and all the pains and dramas around that. To wit family
was very heavily redifined as that of a single half time parent. With a
house to maintain, a strong presence in the local community and an
unwavering love of my beautiful daughter I maintain an open house and
hope maybe to create a more complete family unit again some day but
can't exactly choose when or how or rush that. My daughter remains
beyond any doubt the greatest passion of my life in the meantime ...
what is left of the family I hoped for.
Games
Like many kids we grew up playing games, and the
habit persisted in our family to the point where we (the children) got
involved in role-playing games during school and university and
simulation, war or board games as well. As I grew older, and television
played a smaller and smaller role in my life, carousing, clubbing and
reckless drinking all faded away from the social scene game playing
became a more and more important part of indoor social life. As a family
now we have no television, but a large collection of games, and love to
play them as an interactive social past-time to compete with the
otherwise ubiquitous couch potato TV phenomenon and rental videos.
Living in Europe for a while I discovers, like
many lately, that the Germans produced games unlike those available at
home and most people seemed to play them at least some times - in
contrast with home (Australia) where games were really targeted at
children (Monopoly etc.), party crowds (Pictionary etc.) or die hard
strategists and gaming geeks (Chess, Kingmaker, D&D etc.). The
Germans though produced beautiful games that could capture the interests
of the young and old, the serious and silly, the strategist and the fun
lover, with rules that fit on a few pages, took little time to learn
and explain, and could be played in a reasonable evening's time frame.
In Germany you could find these in great diversity in most stores (not
just game stores) and on most families bookshelves somewhere. This has
led to a phenomenon in the English speaking world, called the German game by many.
The winters being nearly as dark and cold in
Hobart as in Germany we're trying to promote this culture in Hobart now,
with a small group of enthusiasts with the introduction of winter games
nights. Shut down the TV, bring together family and friends and play a
game. That grew into the Hobart Games Society.
Helping
With the creation of a small family and
household surrounding it, I turned from vagabond into father and from
guest into host. Of all the hospitality clubs I experienced in years of
travel WWOOF and possibly Pasporta Servo
were standouts and so, with the support of my family, we became hosts
in both. While we do have and organic garden, we are not an organic farm
and eventually we left WWOOF behind and moved to the Help Exchange.
The same idea just not restricted to organic farming, and unlike WWOOF
managed entirely online which we found far more convenient than WWOOFs
anachronistic paper trail alas.
Helpers are a vibrant part of our household and lifestyle. Organising
our life around helpers, providing them with opportunities to contribute
to our lives and us to contribute to theirs is a central theme of our
summers in particular. We keep a pile of useful information for would be
helpers here.
Travel
Ever since I was a child I entertained dreams of wandering the
world aimlessly in search of my fortunes. After studying and working for
a while, with enough of the stable life behind me I set out to do just
that. I collected a respectable pile of
experience and information on the road, some of which I collected together and summarised conveniently in a group of
travel lists that were appearing in
rec.travel monthly over some years before migrating to a more steady home here (they are very dated and defunct nowadays however.)
Travel for me is a very meaningful theme,
riddled with potential and paradox. To travel with an open heart and
mind is one way to discover the true humanity that binds us all, to
erode our prejudices, and build understanding of the foreign and the
exotic. I encourage all our young people to partake of it with passion
and enthusiasm, and as far as their budgets allow. To travel without
an open mind and heart on the other hand contributes little to the
traveller in the way of personal development, providing at best some
entertainment and/or comfort. Therein lies the paradox of travel for me.
To bring this paradox into the spotlight, tourism is the largest
industry in the world today (measured in turnover). It serves to
highlight in peculiar ways the economic divide between the rich and the
poor, something the open hearted traveller will empathise with rapidly,
and the closed minded traveller may never truly appreciate. It will
inevitably, I think, cause some rumination, and concern, and change in
travel style, in those who care ...
Hitch-hiking
While on the road I developed a serious passion for hitching. Why?
Because it's cheap? Well, partly, but ultimately because it's
adventurous, and it brings you into such close contact with local people
wherever you are. Friendly, helpful local people at that. It is a way
of moving around perfectly suited for the open hearted, open minded
traveller, and all too often misunderstood and misjudged by the popular
media and the general public (who gain their impressions and build their
views from the popular media).
For the Christmas of 1995, Kirsty Brooks compiled a wonderful book on hitchers anecdotes for
which she invited me to contribute some of my own memories. I collected
some of them for her one night and some (three) of them made it into
print. The rest I published on the web and it's grown into something of a
book itself in the meantime. I call it Anywhere But Here: the memories of a hitch-hiker.
Late in 1996 I accepted the role of contributing editor on Hitch-hiking at Suite 101,
where I published regular articles and maintained a list of resources
as well until 2002. It's not a bad web navigation site, and I'd welcome
any visitors to my old corner of it (it's up for adoption).
I also started to collect some hitch-hiking resources
on-line, for my own reference, source material for the articles I
write, and to make them publicly available as well. They have in the
interim attracted the attention and praise of the occasional researcher
into hitch-hiking -- people I'm always keen to hear from in this
radically under-researched field. Off-line I have easily enough material
for a sociological thesis and a back burner project is make that
accessible on-line. The library of hitch-hiking material on my shelves
is beyond any doubt the largest ever amassed (and I am not by nature
inclined towards superlatives).
Zen
Well before my body kicked into gear and hit the road, my heart
and soul did. I could never find much solace in religion as it was
presented to me in my youth, growing up a keen skeptic, atheist,
scientist. In reflection this left me a rather cold and calculating
youth I guess. As I discovered more and more of my own feelings and
personal relationships through my late teens and early twenties, I came
across a recognised philosophy cum religion that harmonised uncannily
with what was going on inside of and around me. Since that time I have
had a keen appreciation for
Buddhism generally and
Zen specifically.
Zen to me seems to capture in its modes of
expression the very essence of life, the very nature of living, and of
the world we do it in. If I were to summarise all of Zen in one word, it
would have to be Paradox. Perhaps one of the most central theses
of Zen is that nothing holds true in its entirety, including this very
fact, leading us to conclude that something must indeed hold true in its
entirety. Or? Well no, not really, the jewel that is Zen is in many
ways about the folly of our efforts to understand and a plea to feel ...
with which will come understanding on a inexpressible level. And if
anyone should read this, who holds a very different view of Zen, that
too is one of its beauties, the many faces it presents, and the many
meanings it provides. It seems to me at times to be every person's tool
to better understanding, with the exception of those with a fear of
incertitude and imprecision (of which it is built). It is the
antithesis of dogma.
Bokononism
I've always cherished the dark humour of Kurt Vonnegut Jr., and in particular a book of his (
Cat's Cradle), in which he familiarises us with the rather esoteric Caribbean religion of
Zen,
also took hold of my heart. In general I find the books of Vonnegut
interesting but his description of Bokononism seems to encapsulate so
many of my own feelings that I can't help but identify favourably with
it. Indeed Bokononism seems to achieve, using full frontal ridicule,
what Zen achieves using enigmatic allusions and paradox. Bokonon's
teachings are also concerned with the folly of learning, and the
imprecise incertitude that is living. Like Zen it is entwined in paradox
- Bokonon provides the people with a certitude in incertitude, and
understanding in their ignorance. True Bokononists know they are duping
themselves, but love doing it, revelling in their humanity.
Esperanto
One of the more interesting cultural phenomena I came across on the road, was a planned language called
Esperanto.
A language planned by a Polish eye doctor over a hundred years ago, in
an attempt to break the language barrier. It was designed to be quick
and simple to learn and culturally unbiased. While it failed to achieve
all of those goals, it did get part of the way, and most significantly
attracted a strong following. It surprised me greatly, and still does,
that there are apparently several million fluent speakers of this
no-man's language spread all over the world.
It turned out to be very easy to learn
indeed, after two quick courses, and a week long easter festival I was
speaking adequately, and have enjoyed the company of Esperantists
world-wide ever since. A friendly community of people with very
international, multicultural and peaceful leanings. Indeed to the
impending world traveller, I can recommend very strongly to
take the time to learn this language. It has opened more cultural doors
for me than any other single language could have (with the possible,
though debatable, exception of English) and has been one of the richest
sources of international contacts I've come across.
Linguistically it isn't a
"perfect" language. There are some internal inconsistencies, cultural
and alas sexual biases in its structure. Over a hundred years old now
some of these have evolved out of the language, yet others have evolved
into the language. It is a living language and shares all the vices and
virtues of other living languages in one way or another. There have been
many other planned languages before and since, which have tried to be
better, to be the perfect language perhaps. Some may have even
succeeded! But none of them can boast a living community the way that
Esperanto can, that is what sets it apart - the astounding, oft
disbelieved, fact of its many many living speakers.
I once made a record of how I learned Esperanto
for those that might be interested in learning it themselves and it has
drawn quite some interest over the years. I've also collected a few
modest Esperanto resources on-line, though I'd recommend a simple keyword search with any search engine to turn up thousands of pages all about Esperanto - better than anything I have here.
Symbolism
Beauty comes in many forms. There is the beauty of the purely abstract on the one hand, and there is a beauty which is representative
on the other. In between there is a world of allusion -- a world of
hints and clues and imprecision, of empathy and sympathy. That is the
world of symbols, and one which fascinates. It is the realm of metaphor
and rhetoric, of meaning and labels. We can communicate a great deal,
very tersely with the beauty of symbolism and just as quickly spread
confusion and misunderstanding.
In fact it's a central thesis of mine that
there is no alternative. Pure abstraction is myth every bit as much as
pure representation. On the one hand, the ink-blot was given meaning by
Rorschach and on the other, the concept of "1" has much broader
allusions than the mere numeric notions it's been assigned by the
mathematicians. Everything lies in the world of Symbols because that is
how we perceive things.
Anything so ubiquitous must be
good! Beautiful while banal. Vibrant while vulgar. Language is built on
symbols, and language is the tool of all. Language prides itself on its
abstractions and its representations all at once. It underlies
everything I've presented above. Language binds, and language is a
collection of symbols.
I wrote a small theory of symbols
one night and think on and off, of working some of my favourite symbols
into an exposé to illustrate it. The drafted seeds of that
illustration have proved so personal as to challenge my desire to
publish it and at least demand a lengthy period of working, waiting,
rethinking, and proofing. Perhaps one day I will publish it. For the
moment I'll content myself with a short presentation of some of the symbols that it would focus on.
Writing
I was a German speaking immigrant to Australia at the age of 5. I
picked up English in remedial English classes with a whole mob of
immigrant kids in the same position, at the tail end of Australia's "
Populate or Perish"
fashion of encouraging and subsidising rapid immigration. Something
didn't work out though, I was a flop at English. I couldn't tell you
what I was I like at German, because I never studied it, but at English I
was a flop. I was an A grade math and science student, but languages
... In high school I never quite failed English, but I failed my fair
share of essays and assignments. English was the only subject for which I
received borderline matriculation grades!
But, to cut a long story short, that all
changed in adult life. I'll thank the women, the work and the travel in
my life for that, and avoid exploring the plethora of details here. The
bottom line is, I started writing, first personally, then
semi-professionally, then professionally. Feedback was good, I was
encouraged, and like every other emotive automaton out there, I enjoyed
doing things I was encouraged to do by warming feedback. I'm still no
prolific writer, don't think I ever will be or want to be, but I grew to
love that which I loathed, the written word, and I can rightly call the
art, a firm interest of mine - albeit off the beaten path of classical
literature. Can't say I've ever earned a serious buck from it, but then
who has? A fraction of one percent of the total (exploding) community of
writers?
I've worked ever so slowly on a book, tapped out a monthly column
for ages, and more generally, am predisposed when time permits to
record my thinking and feeling in writing. The internet being what it
is, has, I suspect already created more writers than all of human
history prior to it! Now I too, in the right context, call myself a writer, wondering all the while, what the heck that might mean ... or ever did mean.
Most of what I have written,
unsurprisingly, falls into contexts described above. I tap out random
rambles here and there, during my travels, and in my diaries. I have a
little corner here for throwing miscellaneous writings
independently of the various other resource pages I keep for specific
interests. It is however meagre and with the arrival of family, not likely to grow any in a hurry.